a small test...

I worry about not being able to move out of my parents house. I still get homesick! My mom is my best friend and it is going to be very hard to move out of a very comfortable place and into what i perceive as a lonely place. well my boyfriend has his own place and i am currently testing my prognosis. Dan is at a patriots game but i am in his condo alone because i am using his car because i dropped my keys down a storm drain and it was my only set! I am not used to QUIET my 7 siblings leave little time for peace at home and in college there was NEVER a dull moment. It's become some sort of addiction. An addiction to chaos. I am typically going crazy after not speaking to or seeing another human being but i am doing just fine this time. I have been here since Saturday night and wont go home until tomorrow after work! I am actually enjoying myself! :) SO i am impressed with myself.... if i wont write later than i made it through the night without becoming severely depressed.

What's really changing?

I sometimes wonder if the United States is becoming a worse place to be or if i have just reached a time in my life that i am aware of all the detriments we seem to be facing on a day to day basis. It seems like at any moment our lives could shatter around us. I used to think that America was a nation where citizens could achieve anything they wanted if they just put in the necessary effort but since i graduated college and settled into my new-found life i spend time worrying that this may be becoming a less and true less statement as days pass. I seem like everytime i turn around its getting harder... no college loans, no car loans, no jobs, no credit available. nothing is the way it was even 5 years ago... or is it just me waking up to the world?